Who am I? That's a good question and a difficult one for me to answer. During the last four years I’ve been on a
journey of self-discovery and, although I've learned a lot about myself, I believe I still have quite a way to go.
I'm not sure when the unraveling began, but I remember feeling as though I was coming undone.
"Like a spool of thread,
Unhappy at work and living in a
marriage that was never really a marriage, I found it more and more difficult
to cope. Then, in August 2011, I hurt my back. I believe this combination of intense physical and emotional pain marked the beginning of my awakening.
"Like a spool of thread,
I was unravelling quickly.
My life unfolded without warning,
I was coming undone."
I was coming undone."
As I approached 40, I realized I
couldn't change my toxic work environment or dysfunctional marriage. The only
thing I could change was myself.
To regain control:
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I sought help from
my medical doctor and followed her recommendations.
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I was referred to a
psychiatrist, who prescribed medication, exercise and counselling.
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I joined a weight
loss challenge and won first prize.
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I attended months of
individual and group therapy for depression and anxiety.
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I built up the
courage and strength needed to leave my abusive relationship.
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I quit my job and, as
a single mom of three children, returned to school.
I'm sharing my story hoping to
inspire and empower others. If I dug myself out from the depths of despair, you
can too. Join me, as I continue to reclaim my life. Please feel free to email me or leave comments on my blog.
Affectionately yours,
Stephanie
Wow! You are good at writing! All your posts were well-structured and held interest. Never again doubt your ability in this area. (SmartKat)
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading my blog and commenting SmartKat. Your opinion is valuable to me and I will cling to these words of encouragement when I start doubting mself. I'm glad you pointed out the issue with posting comments. I changed my settings to allow all people to post.
DeleteSmartKat, You have also been there for me through this storm, even as you faced your own difficulties. You also have experience and wisdom to share. If you ever want to be a guest blogger, let me know.
DeleteI finally had time to come start reading. Knowing your writing, I've got this sense of anticipation, as though I about to go on your journey with you. It's exciting to see you post in a public forum. I know it will help others. We've all been on a journey that taught many painful, but also many joyful life lessons. I'm glad you're sharing yours. (IJU) 😊
ReplyDeleteHi Brian! I'm so happy you made it over to my new blog. I appreciate your interest and feedback. It's strange to be posting "on the other side." Our experiences have taught us a lot, eh? If I can share even a 10th of what we've learned, I'm sure it will help someone. Maybe you'd like to be a guest blogger sometime? Just putting it out there :) Hugs!
DeleteMy dear Stephy, you are a strong woman and you are so brave!. Not every woman to return to school again after that change about your marriage. If my situation was like you, I know what I can do!. Thanks for shared it.
ReplyDeleteDear Ere, It's kind, caring people like you, who have provided friendship and support, that has helped me to make it through these difficult times. Thank you for listening to my rants. xoxo
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